} the usual.

everyday is the same now , weekdays - work, saturday- out and sunday-church.

but why , even though i said i don t like him anymore , still feeling that this sunday is going to be special because we are having a dinner together. why is my heart still pumping like crazy and freaking out on what to wear? stupid heart is not following what my brain is thinking which usually happens.

i am trying not to be paranoid towards someone but i just can t help it , everytime he talks to me , he always put his face up close or tries to stand or sit near me and when that happens, i get all scared and stress? i am doing my best not to think this way but i can t help it , i can t even look at him in the eye and my eyes dart all over the place everytime he comes close.

i can t help to be mean but i really dunno why i am feeling this way but i know it is not nice because i have experience it before .

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